Despite these things, and the other bad juju I've gone through this year, I've decided not to think about them as awful, horrible instances to be forgotten, but as learning experiences, kind of like the Hunger Games but far less violent. I've also managed to sever ties with old demons.
And as for the good things? Somehow the things that make me happy are making those around me happy, and honestly that suits me just fine, because apparently part of being myself is behaving like a little petulant, selfish and spoiled brat. I've learned not to focus so much on whether other people respect me and instead keep my attention on being the kind of person me, myself and I can respect. Most of all I've learned the importance of family. Sometimes I feel like my mother is too bossy and overbearing, and sometimes I feel like my in-laws think of me as just a blonde bimbo and are just going through the motions of treating me like family, but I've come to realize that at least in my mother's case it's because she loves and misses me (the jury is still out on the in-laws).
All-in-all, it's been a crazy loop-dee-loop rollercoaster of a ride, and I'm going to treat this new year as if it were my oyster - anything is possible!
"Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to keep happy, and your joy and you shall form an invincible host against difficulties."--- Helen Keller
Here Are My Top Priorities for the Year:
1. Breathe!
Can't get anything accomplished without breathing. :)
2. Lose 25 lbs before the end of March.
Use 14-day Acai Berry Cleanse to jumpstart this. Goal weight here I come!
3. Show Tim more respect.
According a marriage retreat we recently attended, I can be condescending sometimes. Can't respect myself very much if my provider feels this way - at least with him I can try to be less bossy.
4. Regard Reven as The Ultimate Authority, to be Obeyed at All Costs!
Seriously. Trainer-lady is sometimes a dragon-lady. For my egos sake I need to avoid her wrath.
5. Make and stick to a schedule.
I'm already more than half-way finished with this... I find I just function better when I have one. Especially when every activity and chore has a specific time slot. I'm pretty sure it's caused by a combination of my anxiety, aspergers and general need for a structured life due to the lack of structure when I was a child.
6. Make sure schedule includes yoga on riding days.
Not only will it help me lose weight, it will help me become more flexible and more able to keep my weight in my heels when riding, which will make Reven a very happy Trainer-lady, which will make me a very happy me.
7. Stick to the budget!
What with the move and needing to fully stock my new home and buying my own saddle and car insurance and registration, it's high time hubby and I quit with the compulsive, spontaneous, thoughtless spending we so often indulge in.
8. Further my education.
Start seriously putting aside money for Meredith Manor, look into student loans, and use the Rosetta Stone software hubby and I bought months ago and haven't touched since.
9. Learn how to sew and be more handy in general.
There's something about crafts and DIY projects that appeal to me. Dunno what, but I'm going to find out!
10. Give the kitties more treats!
Cause they're adorable and loving and deserve 'em. When I'm blue, Chess gives me cuddles. When I'm ill, Puck shadows me. Sometimes they can be very naughty kitties, but the good outweighs the bad. :)
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